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| 12:00am 27/11/2006 |
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| 01:41pm 08/10/2006 |
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I feel so in place right now. All my life I feel like I've been talking with a city state of mind. It comes to me as an open, local, qualitative not quantitative, vast knowing mindset dissatisfied with the towns I know. I talked about seattle and vancouver and vibrations with hip hop artists individualizing CD sleeves expanding and connecting minds. I was recited a poem with no introduction at a coffee shop and asked to attend a poetry club. I can thrive on will and time. I love it so and I am home. |
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| I'm Only Sleeping - The Beatles |
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| 11:46am 17/09/2006 |
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if you should arise one morning
to find yourself with one
who shares time and place that's not for sale
and whom you'd trust to share a son
...or daughter
If a bind is stressed from the force of long distance
then invest time in dreams, not defined by resistance
it is not for the now, but the future of your existence |
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| 01:15am 13/09/2006 |
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I can't resent my choice to come to Alaska because for one, I absolutely love everything about the area and in addition the things I miss only developed after I had made a choice to come here. That choice was slightly predetermined due to the cost of school here (< $10k per year) with comparison to a good quality program. I must say that I had never expected to fall madly in love over the summer, or be a part of a developing well liked band. My transient nature seems to be slowing and I feel like I'm changing very rapid pace. I have loved the time in that period of transition so I feel like those changes are acceptable. I feel like I've found someone I would settle down and last with. I don't mean to make early plans becuase times are pretty trying at this point but if this works out I have faith in the future after that. I could have Constance Faith and Trefley. For those of you who haven't been here, it's beautiful. For those of you that took the time to read, thank you. For those that will not read this, I understand. Good night. |
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| 06:56pm 13/08/2006 |
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(the use of the word love in this is always deliberate and never in excess. I love my friends as I love my lovers as I love myself and there is nothing closer)
This is possably and probably my last entry before I leave. One might assume that I take my time and write a very long and meaningful reflection on importnat things. They might be dissappointed. 4,500 miles. I wish it wasn't sad. I wish we didn't have a perpetuity for companionship and love. Maybe if I knew what I wanted, maybe if anyone knew what they wanted we might not be placed in such positions. It's so hard to forget the warmth of someone sleeping next to you. No regrets on placement, but I will miss those I who I love and have loved and I will return as so much more! For that which was, is, and will be, I love you all. |
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| 01:30am 30/07/2006 |
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what can you do to prepare for an experience like this? A week in North Turro to open my eyes then a week in chicago to apply my thoughts and to finish, a physical challenge with a side dish of freedom. I just hope I'm ready. I hope I'm open. Last summer was an awakening for me there. with 3 rolls of film, 3 books, 1 sketchbook (with pencils and pens), many sheets of music paper, and 1 guitar I hope to find that same inspiration and catch a glipse of it. I don't want to sleep there. I want to watch the sunrise over the dunes then read all day and I want to watch the pink press of the sun over the horison pale to the soft glow of boston across the bay then sit in the dark and write songs with simple chord progressions and deep poor vocals. Oh, how I want this and that! I will see if this flourishing hope for experience does not leave me dissatisfied at the end. |
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| 01:51am 19/07/2006 |
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Don't you just love watching big thunderstorms flash in the sky? I could do that for a living. |
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| 08:41pm 16/07/2006 |
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two short songs
morningwood
some speak of morningwood with a wimper in tone
and long for the end of the day
but my confidence shook, when the viagra I took,
would not make it go away
morningwood, my friend at times
you're always on my mind.
when I lie
when
i do die i'd like my
body
buried
with soft soil on my face
lush growth marking my place
when I lie
how will I
know my
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| 12:27am 07/07/2006 |
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so... my pseudo-illness on wednesday turned into a fever of 104 today so I went to the hospital and got an IV and some antibiotics. I'm still not comfortable being wired into a machine via a big thick needle. They say I probably have a tick disease. Bastards. |
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| 06:03pm 05/07/2006 |
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Find your own pose!
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| 09:51am 05/07/2006 |
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sick
work is hard when I have a headache
no songs written unfortunately
maybe I'll try today |
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| 04:30pm 01/07/2006 |
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saturday through tuesday no work means 2 songs per day
I'll post lyrics here when I'm done.
This is my motvation to actually finish it.
Wish me luck. |
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| rabbit |
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| 10:36pm 15/06/2006 |
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jake, tilley, and I took great pride wednesday in learning how to skin a rabbit. The rabbit was shot and killed humanely adn the meat is being eaten and parts used. I'm the recipient of the fur and I plan on tannign it. I'm looking forward to doing it and I think i might know what to use to do it that's easy. I graduate tuesday. Family is little by little showing up. Hectic time. |
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| 12:55am 06/06/2006 |
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we had tonight. couple beers, we played some rockin tunes, we were very well recieved (infact we were asked to join a record label that we all admire more than anything) and we had an awesome time. Even kendra, who got a drunked bloody nose and bled all over the basement. What a night tonight was. More stories that I'm not going to disclose here. good night. |
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| 10:45am 04/06/2006 |
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There were days when I thought I was looking at messages and assuming they were for me, but when you assume an ass is what u make out of me. But I realised that and that's nobodys fault but mine. I used to look at the journal to see if she cared still, but again, bad logic since a paragraph doesn't fill the thoughts that go on. Bottom line is, she loves him and rightly so. She doesn't love me and rightly so. I tried to hope or wish or think that maybe, but I leanred my lesson 6 months too late. Best wishes for things to be (her love), best wishes for things that are (our friendship), and as we exit the summer let things take their course. Thank her for everything, I'm sorry for everything else, lets not lose what we found so satisfying (friends outside the puddle). Love her always. |
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| 04:43pm 29/05/2006 |
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I have 14 of my favorite pictures up on photobucket username: nomanagers sub-album: she was a ho photo sho
Thank you a ton kaitlyn! |
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| photo shoot |
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| 03:41pm 06/05/2006 |
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what a great experience. Great comfort, geat photos, great conversation. I'm glad I did that because I get along with kaitlyn very well and I'm glad to help in something that not many people would do. She's going to put the pictures on a CD for me so I'll have to post some (to your delight or chagrin) when I get them. |
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| 11:54am 30/04/2006 |
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ok i have a photo final and i need to photograph nudes.... i need it today or tomorrow... and i have to take the photos outside... if ANYBODY is bold enough to get naked outside and have me take pictures of you.. i would love you forever.. oh yeah and have to live near me.. thanks!
------- (name ommitted for editorial reasons)
messege me for details
how happy does that make me? |
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| writ of duschbaggery |
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| 09:05pm 17/04/2006 |
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I am the author of braille fables
for no-handed thieves with islamic uppers
The tongue of the horse for the rambling gambler
The newspaper shelved with no big news headline
The one talent artist with all subjects painted
The movie-star lips with nothing to utter
The well traveled vagrant who is tipped out of pity
The dumb soldier warning with no pen and paper
The scissors that cut one side from the other
The server with files and no screen to read them
The father of all of the long extinct cuckoos
But, my children may hear me and I'm satisfied. |
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